misswei

For the past 10 yrs, I've thought myself as a people who can be determined... However I was totally wrong about understanding myself.There was a thought that I've relied on for the past 10 yrs. I shoudn't change my mind whatever decision I've made - just follow it and bear all the consequence following. But now I realise how weak my will is when confronting a frustration. The fact is I can't stand the failure but start thinking to return to the previous condition the one been deemed as unacceptable earlier. I said I shouldn't contact with him anymore but I still phoned him up this afternoon... I said I hated that job but now I am to consider whether to restart working there... All of my life is so confusing, perhaps because I don't know what I really want or need. No, I think I know what I want but if I couldn't achieve it soon, I would easily compromise with the reality. Or merely due to my impaitence...... waitness is not an option for my life? No idea what to do next. I just know whatever I decide, it will be changed very quickly. That's me, I can't trust myself. Even though there are many friends beside encouraging me, I always let them down coz' KEEP CHANGING!!