misswei

For the past 10 yrs,
I've thought myself as a people who can be determined...
However I was totally wrong about understanding myself.There was a thought that I've relied on for the past 10 yrs.
I shoudn't change my mind whatever decision I've made -
just follow it and bear all the consequence following.
But now I realise how weak my will is when confronting a frustration.
The fact is I can't stand the failure but start thinking to return to the previous condition the one been deemed as unacceptable earlier.

I said I shouldn't contact with him anymore but I still phoned him up this afternoon...
I said I hated that job but now I am to consider whether to restart working there...
All of my life is so confusing, perhaps because I don't know what I really want or need.
No, I think I know what I want but if I couldn't achieve it soon, I would easily compromise with the reality.
Or merely due to my impaitence...... waitness is not an option for my life?

No idea what to do next. I just know whatever I decide, it will be changed very quickly.
That's me, I can't trust myself.
Even though there are many friends beside encouraging me,
I always let them down coz'
KEEP CHANGING!!